Last whole Day

Okay, so I did get another chance to blog.

Last night, two of the other volunteers and I decided to sleep out under the stars. We loaded ourselves with bug spray, and found many baby blankets to cover with. The last few nights have gotten much cooler here, so we made sure to have some nearby if we needed them. We decided to stay at the main house, and "sleep" on the balcony in which we have been working on. It was so beautiful to see all the stars, and 3 shooting stars; with the bright shining moon. I was just marveling at God's creation, and reminded again that he allows us to see these extra simple things in life to reflect his beauty. Amazing. The sleep part wasn't as great, but halfway through the night I found a chair to sleep on, and I am feeling it now. I really wanted to see the sunrise, so we came downstairs to go to the other balcony so we could actually see it, and we didn't realize that they put their dog in front of the door at night; who started barking. We didn't want to wake everyone up at 5am, so we decided to watch it slowly rise to the point we could see the yellow glimpse. It was still such a good experience, and we didn't get too bit up like we were told we might.

I cannot believe today is my last day. I have been reflecting on these children, and what they have taught me; which is so much. I did not choose these children to love; I was given a piece of paper with the names of the eight children I would work with. I have grown to love them; even if some hours were/are harder than others, but I have seen such beauty and changes in the lives of these children. I feel like it is very similar to life, and to the people we meet and come into contact with. We may be quick to judge others, judge others off of their appearance, or just realize that we don't want to associate with certain people, but if I would have chosen the babies that were the cutest or the easiest...i would not have had the experience I have had. I have been challenged and frustrated at times, but now in the end looking back..i know I had these kids for a reason. God gave me the patience and understanding for each of these children. I have seen them overflowing with love, and I love how they just beam when I walk into the room. They probably see my face light up when I see them...so they do it back, I don't know, but I do know that I have seen the face of Jesus in each of them. They didn't need to give me love, because i was coming to show them love, but they have overwhelmed with Christ's love. These children have taught me to find joy in the small things, and love on others; even if they are not your best friend. These children have impacted my life, and I hope I was able to give them a tiny glimpse of the love of Christ. It is hard to think about not seeing these kids again in this lifetime, because I may come back, but they may be adopted by that time. I was here for a reason, and the Lord has revealed himself to me. We worship such a loving Father, and that is the love and arms that these kids are living in. Talking to adoptive parents..they have expressed their appreciation for us for serving them, and I am grateful for the opportunity to serve them in return for allowing us time with their precious family member that they can't wait to have home.

Sunday I went back to the Haitian Church, which is such a good experience. One of the first songs that we sang was, "How great thou art." They sang it in Creole, and I sang it in English, but we were singing to the same God. It reminded me of the amazingness of the world, and how we may seem different and do different things, but many of us strive to keep a relationship with our Father. He is glorified by our attempts, even though we fall short. He gives us spiritual gifts, skills, and a heart for something, and all that can line up together for furthering the kingdom of God!

Yesterday we had a birthday party for the kids who were born in July. I love to be able to celebrate their life with them, and show them that they are important, and we care about them. I went down to the nursery to get a baby, and he was fast asleep, but I had to wake him up to get him ready for his party. I whispered his name, and I don't think I have ever seen a baby get up out of his crib and on the floor so fast...it was so cute. The kids enjoy their party, and some may get to experience their first sugar high, but just about the time it kicks it..they are back in the care of the nannies, who work so hard...ooopsies. Speaking of sugar highs...we love walking to a little window shop down the street to get Torro, a resemblance of red bull, and Tampico, which is kinda like Sunny Delight. It def. gives us a boost for the day, and it is a fun little tradition we have had these past few weeks.

I have loved it here; and the Kids, staff, cultural, and volunteers have opened my eyes to greater things. I hope to be able to do something like this in the future again, but we are able to serve the Lord in whatever we do. Another thing we love here is the sticky buns, which get delivered once a week; so i think i am going to go enjoy one, and soak in this day.

Blessings to everyone, and it is hard to believe that this chapter in my life that I have been longing for is closing and will be back in PA tomorrow. Thanks again for every ones thoughts and prayers...i have felt them.

My hands will be empty, but my heart will be full

This is my group photo. These are the precious eight children that I have been working with these past two months. I was getting very anxious to come home, but this past week it hit me how much I am going to really miss these children. I feel like I was numb to a lot of the conditions these children live/lived in until recently. I know these children will get other volunteers once I leave, but it is hard to think about that, because I feel like I have grown to know them so well; like if they love snacks, walks, baths, and how to get them motivated or to get them to smile. I have fallen in love with these kids, and they have touched my life so much. I realized I have become so proud of their accomplishments, and have wanted all the other volunteers to see what they have done. I have really been challenged with Daphne', because it seemed like she was very unmotivated to walk or make eye-contact. This week I have seen much improvements. The other volunteers and I smile at her crawling, because she looks like a giant. She is almost three years old, and still crawls everywhere. Anyhow, yesterday I was trying to get her to walk to me, because i have been putting her in a walker, and bribing her with food; which has been working well. Well, yesterday she took around 15 steps, and she was so proud of herself. She had a big smile on her face, and I was speechless. I was so excited, because it just showed me once again how love can motivate these children, and with love they will develop at a normal rate. Love is a powerful thing, and these kids need it, and thrive for it. The same Love we need to show to our father.

There is a family/team here from Alabama, and the one couple has adopted three children; one from GLA. They are an amazing family, and have shown us once again the amazingness of adoption. The family made arrangements for their daughter to meet her biological family when they were here serving. Thursday she got to meet them, and I got to watch their interaction. It gave me such goosebumps, because it was such an amazing reunion to watch. The biological family was excited to see their 14 year old daughter growing up and living in a Christian home. The adoptive family thanked them so much, and felt guilty for getting the joy of their daughter. The biological family said they would want it no other way, and assured them they pray for them everyday, and are blessed to have their daughter in their home. It was amazing, and it shows how God orchestrates the perfect families for the childrens needs.

I believe I mentioned that this past Sunday a baby arrived that was a few hours old. The family was coming almost daily to visit her to see how she was growing. They were planning on keeping their child, but they didn't have the medical needs for their tiny 2lb baby. Well with the conditions available in Haiti...the little baby went to be with the Lord yesterday morning. It was really sad to think of the loss this family felt. Many parents feel a loss when they drop off their child, but they know that they will be given a much better life than they could provide, but in this case...they lost her on this earth.

This past week has been really good, but went really fast. I have experienced such a joy and peace this week, and last night I was cradeling two of my babies in my arms as it got dark, and God's grace filled me up. It has been such a transforming time here, and I will miss the people and the babies. I wouldn't have traded this time for anything, and these babies have given me such hope and love in return.

Last night was movie night with the older kids at the toddler house. It has been really fun getting to know them as well. It melted my heart when i walked into the room last night to watch the movie with them, and they were all calling out my name, and wanting me to sit with them. They are precious, and I have loved being able to tuck them into bed at night with a kiss. They radiant with love and with anticpation for their future families to give them hugs and kisses...and not just at night.
Today we are working with the kids without volunteers, and tomorrow we hope to make the best out of our last sunday. We may go to the waterfall again or explore something after house church. We will see!

Thanks so much for all your thoughts and prayers during this time. It has been challenging at times, but I have made it through with God's strength. I would appreciate prayers for strength as I say good-bye and for safe travels on Wednesday. I am not sure if I will get the chance to blog again before I leave.
Thanks! Blessings

Rainy and cooler

The weather has gotten cooler the last few nights, which has been a nice break. It has been so warm here, which has had the potential to make everyone a little more on edge, but the rain has cooled things off. Here I am at the end of Tuesday night already. This is my last full week, and now it feels like my time is quickly wrapping up. Approaching this week I felt like I still was going to be here for awhile, but the more time I spend with my kids the more of them I get to know them, and the more I realize how much I am going to miss them. I feel like they finally have grown to trust me, and expect my return to pick them up at the nursery each morning. One of the babies just waves good-bye to me when I put her down, which has been a nice change from her being very unhappy every time I dropped her off. My guess is that she trusts that I will be back for her. The babies are doing really well, and I am blessed to have seen them make important developmental stages in their life. What a treat, but at the same time I wish it was their parents. It is amazing how much these children have learned and improved, and a lot of it is due to them getting love and attention, which makes them more motivated. It has been challenging because Daphne' can stand for long periods of time, but refuses to take steps on her own. I am hoping that she justs gets courage and motivation, and takes those steps. I know the nannies would appreciate it, and I know she would be able to get around much better in the nursery. She is one of the older ones in the nursery, and I know she has it in her because she is determined. J-Widler, who is in need of eye surgery to correct his eyes, seems to be getting the chance of getting to the U.S. on medical visa in the beginning of August, which is such good news. The other babies are and have been learning to sit and crawl on their own. I can't imagine how excited parents get when their child does new things, because when our babies do something new..we make it known and celebrate loudly. I got very excited when Fanes crawled across the mat yesterday, which made all the days worth it.

This weekend was great and relaxing, which was much needed. We went to the lookout, which overlooks Port-au-Prince and the ocean, the Baptist Mission, and the grocery store on Saturday. It was fun to get out and see more of Haiti once again. I wasn't feeling the greatest this weekend, which took away from my last outing, but I am feeling much better now. Health can be so easily taken advantage of. God works in ways we cannot always see, but other times it is very obvious. I feel like we have seen many miracles happen here. One of the babies got very sick last week. It was one that was up on the balcony a lot with me throughout the time i have been here. He was doing great and was fine, and then the one day he got a bad infection. They didn't know if he was going to make it or not, but they did all they could. They did CPR on him for 2 hours straight, and watched him closely. He currently is doing very well. In the States it would be no question if these babies would survive or not, but here it is a different story. The Lord watches over these babies, and really has in hand in all of their/our lives. On Sunday we got another baby at GLA that weighed about 2 lbs, and was born about 5 hours before the mother brought her in. She is so tiny, and is currently in the incubator. She is small, but doing really well. Her mother knew that if she had any chance of surviving, she had to bring her to the NICU at GLA. There are many selfless parents here, and I cannot imagine what they give up for the benefit of their baby.

Sunday we had house church again back at Joel and Evyonne's house. He spoke on God's father like characteristics, and how he lavishly loves us, and delights in us as Children of God. It was very encouraging, and once again we had an amazing time of workship. We also went to the waterfall again. We love to get out and hike, and meet new people. We met up with three little girls who were walking to the waterfall to get water for their family. They were each carrying water jugs that weighed about 5 lb or so each. They were strong, because we offered to carry it, and I was def. feeling the extra weight when we were climbing the hill. Many people hike the path with water or with something on their head. I am always very impressed. As we were walking back the one girl's shoe's sole was falling apart. She kept telling us this, and was pointing to her feet. I was wondering what I could do, because I broke my flip flops the day earlier, and many Haitians were pointing and laughing at me. Some of them were probably very excited to have better shoes then my falling apart shoes. Finally I decided to give her the only money I had with me, and told her to buy shoes with that money. It was not much at all, but the smile on the girls face was huge. The other two girls gathered around her, and they walked away with an extra skip in their step. I was reminded again how true it is that it is soo much better to give then receive. We are so blessed with so much!

I continue to need prayer for focus and the ability to savor each moment with these kids. Yes, I am leaving soon, but I don't want that to hinder my time with the kids or the other volunteers. I have learned to go to Christ first, because here I have very limited access with others, and the Lord has taught me a lot through that. I have enjoyed the slow pace of life here, and the ability to sit and focus on these dear kids. Today another family has come to visit with their son who they are in the process of adopting, and it is so exciting to see and hear their journey. They said there are no words to describe the feelings you experience when you get to meet them in real life for the first time. It has been a joy talking with them, and seeing them love on their son. It is the same love our Father feels towards us, and God is so good!

It's Friday everyone!

This week was a great week, but I find myself very tired. Thursday was picture day at the toddler house, which I got the privledge to help out with again. It went really smoothly, and was quicker than last time. While we were waiting for Melanie to get to the house to take the pictures, I was observing the nannies hand-washing the clothing. I was very impressed, but decided to give it a try. Apparently I wasn't doing it correctly, because I wasn't getting the squishy noise. I was still kinda proud of my accomplishment, and after doing two articles of clothing my knees were hurting. I left to go wash my hands, and the other girls said they shamely put the clothing I washed back into the container. I am very impressed at their constant hard work. They are true servants, because it is not easy to wash clothes for 72 kids each day.

Later that day we decided to go on a walk. Holly, one of the volunteers, was frustrated because she didn't have any babies to take out. I told her she could take one of my babies out. She was really excited, and started to get him all strapped in. She was claiming how wonderful it was, and that she was hands free. I told her she should face him out, because he could see better. She said she loved him towards her because it felt more secure. I helped her get him all ready and we proceeded towards the gate. She turnd to me to tell me she needed prayer in a certain area, and all of a sudden my eyes got realy big, and I quickly told her my baby was throwing up all over the place. She didn't know what to do, becaues he was strapped to her, and facing her; there was nothing for her to do. I laughed so hard, and so did Dixie, the director here. Holly gags really easily, and she was gaging, and standing in a puddle. The office is located right around the corner, and they thanked us for making their day. Last night we were sure to reinact the whole thing. I was almost crying from laughing. I love random little stories like this, especially when people make a big deal about something :)

Last night we also had our "talent" show. It was fun, and everyone participated. It was hilarious because it was so random, and no one really had any talents to show off. We enjoyed each other, and had a great evening laughing. We then watched a recording of an Adoption story, which is aired on TLC from GLA. It was fun, because I have watched many of these shows before, but didn't realize that this is where many of those stories took place.

This morning we had our weekly Bible study at the Guest House. Todd, whose family is serving in Haiti this month while the hosts of the guest house are in the States on vaction, lead us and encouraged us. It was a great time to reflect and rejuvinate us to finish strong. I feel like I have been doing really well, but the closer I get to coming home, the more anxious I become. My prayer is to stay focused until the end, and give 100%. I am grateful for a time to relax this weekend, and come back refreshed to give my all for my last full week. We are going out tomorrow for our fun day, but still now quite sure where we are going.

I dont' feel like I have ever seen the resemblence of Christ as often as I do with these children. Last night I was holding baby Fanes, and I was just gazing into his big dark brown eyes. I saw my reflection in his eyes so clearly. I don't know if he resembles his biological mother or father, but he gave me the picture of what it looked like to reflect others. The Lord was just speaking to me, and encouraged me to reflect Him no matter who I came into contact with, because it should be as evident as seeing myself in Fanes eyes. The Lord wants us to be his reflection to others around us. It is easy to get so busy and distracted, but there is one reason we are here....to Love God and love His people. The Lord is faithful. My mom emailed me this week, and informed me that more money came in within the last few weeks. I was so thankful, and knew God would provide finacially. I was discouraged and unsure if I should have still come, but being here I know the Lord has called me here for such a time as this. Thanks for all your prayers, support, and finacial gifts. It has impacted me, and many others.
Have a great weekend..blessings.

Wow

I am amazed at the strength that the Lord gives us when we are tired and worn out. Today I was feeling very tired, but despite that it was a good day. Today we finished up picture day with the little babies. We also got news that baby S can leave tomorrow with a medical visa. Anna, a volunteer who was here last week, came here expecting to be here for a week and ended up staying over a month waiting to see if doctors would still take baby S. She has hydrochipilas and the doctors in the U.S. didn't want to take a baby that wouldn't stand the chance of surgery. No one wanted to make the call if it was "worth it" which sounds horrible for a life. They have decided to take her, and they got her passort/visa today. This was a huge answer to prayer, and news that we have been waiting to hear for a long time. Some new volunteers came in, and Jamie is leaving tomorrow. Jamie has been amazing, and has taught me a lot about her life, and the love that she has shown these little children. It is amazing how volunteers come in and go, but being here you get to know people fast.

I feel like I am experiencing many ups and downs..I love it here, but I am becoming anxious to come home. I have been challenged, and I feel like I have experienced an amazing love from these children. It seems like you always go into a situation expecting to help, but you get so much back in return. It is amazing. Tonight as I was holding Fanes on the balcony after the sun had set...we were alone, and I was just holding him, looking at the sky, and singing worship songs. I was thinking....wow, life is incredible, and God allows us to experience such amazing beauty. He wouldn't have to make such an incredible sight when the sun rises or sets, but he chooses to, to resemble his love and beauty that he beholds. These kids have such love, and they reflect such love in their eyes. Their smiles, giggles, and shrieks are precious, and they strive for the most important thing....which is to give and get love. These kids don't have many toys of their own, but when you sit there and talk to them...they stare up at you, smile at you, or just stroke your face because they are intrigued. They teach you alot. These kids imitate things that we do, and they look up to us, and continue to reach and reach for your hands so that you pick them up. This shows me a lot of the same ways I should strive for Christ. I really don't think I have ever compared things to Christ so much. It has been very eye opening, and has shown me more of the character of Christ. This was one of my goals this summer; to see and fall more in love with our Father. He has shown himself through these kids; through kids who are father and motherless, and have very little to claim their own. The Lord can use simple things to teach us things...we just need to look to him, and be still before his throne.

We are having the first annual GLA talent show on Thursday night. I think this is very random becasuse there is only like 10 people or so...so it should be interesting. I have some tricks up my sleeve for the night, but it should be fun. The other night I fell asleep on the couch, and woke up to people around me asking me to give them a preview of someting that I showed them earlier. It was hilarious, because I was really out of it still from just waking up. People are great...and know the right time to get people to do things :) Blessings and much love coming from Haiti.

This is Martha (a new volunteer) and I on the mountain that we hiked today. We decided to stop about half way up. I tried to upload a photo of the mountain, but it took too long. We left this morning at 7 am, and got back around 1 pm. It was a very warm day, and we ran out of water practically at the point we stopped at the top. It made for a very tiring walk back. It was amazing and beautiful. I felt like I got to know the culutral better just by hiking and seeing more of Haiti. We saw some incredible things, and met some amazing people. At one point we stopped to take a breather at a y shaped path, and were surrounded by Haitians on all angles all of a sudden; I guess we were a sight.We were very sweaty and our faces were really red...some of the kids were like..you are white..and you are red as we walked by. We packed a lunch to eat, but I decided to give away a lot of my snacks, beause they needed them more than I did. I traded half of my peanut butter and jelly sandwich for a picture. Kids are very willing to pose for pictures if they get to see them, but older people usually want something in return of a photo. I thought it was a good trade...a temporary sandwhich for a lifelong photo. This trail reminded me of a steep deer trail made up of dirt and sliding rocks. It was really neat to overlook the moutain and see some of the homes people live in. I was so impressed that people walked up and down this trail to go to church. We were exhausted walking up and down it one time, but people are so willing and dedicated to make the trek each Sunday. We stopped hiking at a church, but we could hear them singing from far away. It was beautiful, and make us all the more eager to make it to that point. We sat down in the shade, and had a little lesson. I read James chapter 1, and we discussed it. The Lord gives us trials to help us not lack anything, but to continue to perserve and consider it a joy to be under trials to strengthen our faith. It was encouraging, because we need to perserve through the good times and the hard times, because it will be worth it. The Lord can work through us if we are willing. The Lord has been so gracious to me, and has provided me more opprotunites to share my faith and be able to listen to some of the volunteers experience or hard times that they are going though. The Lord puts us in places at the right time, even when we don't see the fruits right away, or when we don't think what we are doing is making a difference. If we are willing, and if we pray for opprotunites-the Lord provides them, we just need to be aware and on the lookout so we don't miss them. I am thankful and blessed. thanks for all your love and support :)

The Hike

Work Saturday

Today was work Saturday, but it was pretty relaxing. We spent time with kids who don't currently have volunteers; so we saw many smiles and giggles today. It was a very warm day so we gave a lot of the kids baths. At one point I was watching six toddlers enjoy their bath..but it quickly became too much, because they were splashing and jumping from tub to tub. It made my day to see them talking to each other, and just laughing and laughing. This week flew by, and I can't believe tomorrow is Sunday. I only have about two and a half weeks left. This time has gone very fast, but at the same time it seems like I have been here a long time.

Each day we work on the balcony, and from the balcony we see a beautiful mountain. One of the volunteers who was here for nine months said she climbed it the one day, and loved it. I thought it would be amazing to get that chance, and tomorrow is the last Sunday until Joel and Eyvonne come back from the U.S to lead us in house church. We thought it would be neat to have devotions on the mountain. I heard it was about a 10 hour hike, and if everyone feels up to it..we are going to attempt it. Keep us in your prayers..Mom-don't worry, we will be fine :)

I have grown to love mangos. Each night for dinner we get them, and I crave them and look forward to the refreshing fruit. I will miss them when I get home.

One of the new volunteers got really sick the other night. I felt so bad for her because she was new and not really adjusted yet. We felt helpless, but we made sure to pray for her quick healing. Last night as Becca and her were brushing their teeth....Becca's eyes got really big, and told her to stop. Here she was brushing her teeth with the water and rinsed out her mouth with it. Just Minuates before that happened we were talking how it is hard to pinpoint why people get sick. So, it is usually hard to pinpoint the causes :)

I continued to really appreciate your prayers. I am doing really well, and thank the Lord each day for this opprotunity, and for keeping me healthy. I am blown away by his faithfullness. Pray is so powerful, and I am only starting to see how important it really is. I have been really challenged with the other volunteers, and have continued to rely on the Lord for a good attitude. I realized today that I went to the Lord first when I became frustrated, and reflected on that because it is so easy to go to others first when the access is there. These volunteers/girls are wonderful and I realy appreciate them. The volunteers who come here tend to be strong and independent so it is easy to have different opinions. It really teaches you patience when you are with people 24/7. I feel like the Lord has grew and challenged me in many ways..big and small..and I am grateful. Blessings :)

Catching up

So once again it has been a few days. This week is going well so far, and I can't believe I only have three weeks left today. On Monday the house here at the toddler house became very crowded, because we have a total of 14 people here. There is only two bathrooms; so we are scheduling when we get our chance in there. There is a group of us girls here volunteering, which has been really fun and has been getting bigger. It has been interesting watching how everyone interacts, but there are so people that don't enjoy others as much. This has been challenging because I want to make sure everyone feels included, because it is hard enough coming to a unfamilar place, and then not feeling accepted, but with many different personalities it makes for an interesting experience. I have really enjoyed meeting people from all over the U.S.-I think I almost have connections in all of the states :) It has been really encouraging talking to other people/volunteers about our experiences, but I have also realized that we have had many different backgrounds. The one volunteer said she never felt like I judged her, even though she knows that I don't agree with some of her beliefs and actions. I say this to give the Lord praise for his work in my life, because I told her that if it was a few years ago it might have been different. I really do feel the Lord working in my life, and shining through me. I can't take this credit, because my human nature doesn't always line up with Christ's, but he is challening me and convicting me. It is easy to quickly label people, or get upset at others for wanting to do things different than we are use to, but really these things don't and shouldn't matter. What matters is loving God firstly, and loving his people. This should be easy, but it is a journey.

Yesterday we got to the main house and worked with our babies for an hour, and than Joyce came to get us to take us to the toddler house. The kids and nannies were having a pinata....which was so funny to watch. The kids loved it, and we were crowd control to help them wait until the whole thing was broken/open. They got a little excited a few times, but what do you expect out of 90 kids? The nannies were so funny...they each took thier turn to hit it, but boy when that thing opened...those ladies were scrambling after that candy and treats. Our jaws hurt from laughing, and the kids were cheering them on. The kids shared with each other, and made sure that everyone had something, which was a good lesson for everyone :) Afterwards we came back to the main house to work with our babies again.

My babies are doing well. It has been awesome to see them change and grow since I have been here. Ferlanson has filled out more, and his skin has gotten increasingly better. He is such a happy baby, and I love to walk into the nursery and see him beam and giggle when I smile at him. It makes my heart melt. I feel like my babies have been challenging to work with, but the more progress I see in them, the more rewarding it is. I feel like some of the volunteers have really clicked with all their babies, but I guess because I am here a little longer they gave me babies that need additional care. Today I was working with Daphnee' and I put her in a walker, and she took steps forward, which made me really excited. I clapped in excitment, and she looked at me and tried to imitate it. It was really special. Nadine is a little character, but she loves baths and walks. She loves one on one attention, and I enjoy our time together. Fanes, which is my sweetheart, has started to rock back and forth, and I am sure he will crawl soon. I am working with him on that, but it is hard to work with him when I love to hold and talk to him. The other babies are doing well, and the more time I spend with them the more I love to see them. I feel like they have opened up to me, and I have really enjoyed these moments with them.

Today we took 7 children to a psych appointment. The kids were well-behaved, and they were mesmorized by the passing traffic. The ride there and back was about a 2 hour trip.One of the roads were blocked so we had to turn around and go a different way, which made the trip longer. All but one of the kids fell asleep. We held the children, and were there carseats. Martha (a volunteer),Melissa and I watched the children as they went in one by one for their appointment. One of the children that came with us today was a 3 week old baby, and I don't think he weighed more than 5lbs. He was so adorable, and so tiny. These kids are doing well, and it is evident that the Lord has his hand in their lives, and is protecting the staff and volunteers.
We serve a good God. I have been reading a 5 week Journal based on poverty, prayer, and following God's calling. I have really enjoyed reading this while being here; being surrounded by poverty. It is hard to reconcile the fact of having so much, while being around so little. I have come to the understanding of what matters most is what are passions are, and how we can serve the Lord the best. It is our heart that matters, and how we use that to benefit others. It is not about feeling guilty, and giving and serving to charity becaus of those feelings, but really serving and giving because our heart is set on it, and because he has laid that on our hearts.

Okay, I should go. It is really warm tonight, and I need to move near a fan. I hope everyone is doing well. Much love. Thanks again for your continued prayers; it means a lot.

Beyond Goodnight Kisses

Here are some random pictures from this past week. The first one is a neighboorhood girl who carried water back to her family. Her brother and her make trips to get water for their family. The next one is scenery from the walk we went on. It is awesome to get out and see new things and meet new people, which we try to make happen each day. The next few are from the toddler house, which house kids from 3-13 years old. When we get "home" from the main house the toddlers attack us, which is so fun because we love to play with them and make them smile. We have started going around to all the kids at night and giving them kisses before they go to bed. I feel kinda bad, because the nannies have them calmed and bathed, and we walk in and make them a little excited. We go from bed to bed, and say bonui (we means goodnight). They smell so good because they are powered and all clean for bed. They are adorable. I love to go to bed to the hum of the children singing Jehovah Jirah..He is my provider, which is such a great reminder for me. When the children sing this song they mean it and really do rely on the Lord for their needs. Tonight I had some energy left over, and was missing camp; so I decided to put all that to good use. I grabbed a few girls hands and started doing ring-around-the-rosie with them...they were giggling and enjoying the...and we all fall down part. A few minuates later I would guess we had a circle of 15-20 kids. Soon after that I proceeded leading the chicken dance, and then a line of a train. It made me really happy, and I was laughing hard. These kids are adorable, and I have really enjoyed developing relationships with them. Each day the kids would ask me my name..so I decided to respond with, Lollipop. It is good, because they remember it, but it is not good because they think they have the right to lick an bit me because of my name. :) (I don't know if I shared that story yet or not, but i enjoy it). The kids are doing great, and I am stil working on getting them to take more steps, get stronger, and become more happy. I have learned to cherish the moments with these kids. I love to look into their eyes, and see such hope and joy; whether they physically show it or not.

There has been a lot of things that I have been thinkng about this week. I feel like the longer I am here the more I fall in love with the children, but especially the people of Haiti. They are so special, and I don't know how to put it into words. I love the community feel, and I enjoy the walk in the morning, because we pass many of the same people each day. I feel like I am learning more and more what service looks like. I feel like I have been doing a lot of the same things each day, and each day is pretty predictable. I can't let that limit my day, and limit what God can do. I feel like this is an awesome foundation of serving, which I hope to continue to build on this experience and become better and more willing to do what the Lord leads me to do. It has been hard at times, but serving can be fun, but doing the same things each day has taught me that serving is a mindset, and you can choose to serve with a positive attitude or not. It is easy to become frustrated or tired, or too hot, but when I realize the amount of time I have with these children the least I can do is complain or become negative.

The weather has got increasingly hot, and it makes for a lot of time in the pool for the kids, which they love. The other volunteers have continued to be very encouraging and I feel very blessed to have had these times with them. The Lord is working in our lives, and we have had good times of sharing on many different topics, which have been affirming and challenging alike. The Lord has really reavealed himself through the children to me. One example, when we go into the nursery for our kids...and each hour we get one of them to work with...if we choose one and not the other at that moment..they show their discontent in our decision. I feel like God was saying the same thing to me...I can choose to follow him, or choose other things to do instead of spending time with HIm. The times that I choose not to be with him....hurts him, because he desires to spend those moments with me. The creator of the universe wants to spend time with us...what an awesome privledge, and so many times I choose other things. Well, I think that is all for now...but Happy July 4th to everyone. I am sad to miss out on picnics and fireworks, but thankfully we are having a little picnic ourselves at the new orphange site that overlooks the city or Petionville. It should be fun, but times like these is when I realize how blessed I am to be surrounded by such amazing people! Blessings!

Sunsets

Here is a picture of one of the beautiful sunsets. We have been trying to watch it after dinner most evenings. We grab a baby and watch it; It is an awesome way to enjoy the end of the day.

This is one of the babies

Here are some more photos

Here is a picture of Jamie, an awesome volunteer, and I at the waterfall we walked to on Sunday!

Haiti is beautiful

Friday was a good day. The temperature is definitely rising making it hard to sit in the sun, and making us very warm and sweaty. The balcony, where we play with the kids each day is warm; so on Friday was took the kids outside the gate and just sat in the shade and held them. They say June is the hottest month usually, but I think July is going to be the warmest this year. On Fridays we usually have prayer time together as volunteers, but I thought that was going to stop since Brad and Lois left for vacation, but we decided to still have it. It was an awesome time of laughing, and sharing things on our hearts, and praying for each other. Nadine, one of my babies, was throwing a tantrum when I took her out of the nursery, so I decided to take her back, and get her out later. The second time I went back for her she was content and happy. I think she needed a nap. She showed me so much about Christ's character, because as I was taking her back to the nursery after our time together...I looked into her eyes and told her I loved her. She looked back at me, and send in English that she loved me too, as she gave me a kiss. I don't know if she knew what she was doing or saying, but it demonstrated Christ's love for me. No matter what I do he is faithful and loves unconditionally. He is a good God. 

Saturday we worked again with the children who do not currently have volunteers. We also threw a birthday party for the kids born in May. They didn't have time to do it earlier, so we got to celebrate their birthday with them on Saturday. They were so cute, and seemed to have a great time.  Today, Sunday, we went to house church which was very encouraging as always, and the worship was extra special today. We (the volunteers) decided we needed to get out, because days can get very routine, so we decided to hike to the waterfall. It was about a 45 min walk, but it was so beautiful the whole way. We got to the waterfall, which was about 8 feet tall, and we thought it was going to be bigger, but we had a blast. It was a really good time to relax and enjoy each other's company. The water wasn't very clean, but we saw people bathing and washing their clothes and dishes in the water. It was sad to see, but Haiti has limited clean water, and this is one of the reasons why disease is prevalent in this beautiful country. Tonight we went to the grocery store, and it was nice to get some things that we have been craving..like fruit, ice cream, chocolate, and vegetables. We eat a lot of carbs, which are good, but I have been craving fruits and veggies. 

The volunteers have been a huge blessing to me, and I am so blessed to have known them. I never expected to come here and meet young women who were my age, and who were amazing. I prayed for a support group, and God has given that to me. God works in ways we can never imagine. Danielle, which is the girl who I came with, is leaving on Tuesday. It is going to be hard to say good bye, because we came the same time, and have been together this month. I have been improving, and learning to savor each day. I can't believe it is almost July, which means one month down, and one more to go. It has gone really fast, but at the same time it seems like I have been here a long time. I have to keep doing new things with the kids to keep the days different, but serving is important whether I feel like doing it or not, which is teaching me perseverance, and finding my strength in Christ. I do really enjoy it here, and God has been showing me new things about himself. 

"My" Kids

Okay, I guess it is time to tell you about the kids that I have been working with. We are not allowed to put names to pictures, but I can tell you about them without them. The first one is named Bethsaina, and she is six months old. She is such a sweetheart and loves to smile and giggle. I need to work with her on sitting, because she gets too excited at times and topples over. The next one is Daphne', who is 2 years and 8 months old. She is such a sweet and independent little girl. I am her first volunteer because she was only been a GLA for a little more than a month. She doesn't seem to respond to her name or some other phrases, but I am working on showing her love and getting her to take steps without my help. She can stand, but lacks the confident to take her own steps. I am bribing her with cookies which she loves, but we need to slowly wean her off of that for walking. The next is Fanes, which is the hour I most look forward to. He is eight months old, and is such a giggly smiley boy. He has been sick the last few days and just changed nurseries..so he is having a hard time adjusting, but I know his smile will return soon. He needs to learn to sit and start crawling, but once again he will get there. The next is Ferlanson, who is also eight months old, and he has started to really giggle and smile. He had bad skin when he came in, but with applying lotion each day it is getting better. The next one is Jean-Widler, who is a year old and three months. He has a weak eye, so each day I need to put a patch on his strong eye to work on strengthening his weak eye. He loves the jumper and is a content baby. Then their is Nadine, who is about 2 and a half. She is amazing, but def. has a little attitude. I never know how she is going to respond to what I have to offer her....it makes my day being with her. Sarah Ruth, is a year old and 3 months, and has a big smile. I feel like it look some time to warm up to me, but now that she has it is wonderful. Whenever i walk into the nursery she chasing me because she does not want me to leave without her. Wally, last but not least, is three months old. He is a cutie who is learning to smile and be a happy baby. I need to continue to work on his eye-contact and help him to lift his head and look at the world around him. 

I have enjoyed these last few days because I feel like the children recognize me, and have bonded with me. It feel so good to get them to laugh and enjoy our time together. I have also enjoyed getting to know the volunteers. They are all so unique and different, and have such amazing backgrounds. It is true that each person is going through their own trial, and that we need to be aware of that. I have enjoyed hearing what they think on certain issues, and being able to debate, and discuss what I believe. Today we were talking about our struggle on materialistic objects, and how we can have comforts, but still be able to serve and give generously. It was good to hear others opinions. It is crazy to see a face, and not know what they are dealing with until you hear their story. Some of the volunteers have lost friends, and had family members go through or went through cancer. It is neat to be able to see how they became stronger, and what the Lord had taught them. You never know why the Lord brings people into your life, but I know it is for a reason. I need to continue to pray for more opportunities and good talks, because not all the volunteers who come through here have a personal relationship with Christ. It is not just the kids we are ministering too...it is also the volunteers and staff. Thanks again for all your prayers....I can feel them. Thanks and blessings to all of you!

It's been a bit

Hey! Sorry, it has been a little while since I wrote. There are over 7 volunteers here now..so the Internet is not as available. I am doing well. I was just thinking today about the slower pace of life that I am living these days, which is nice to be able to rest and reflect. I feel like I am always doing something, but it is not the constant go, go, go that we normally feel pressured to do. It is good to take each moment and savor each day. I need to learn to be able to savor each day more, but I am learning the importance of each of the moments I get. I feel like the weeks fly by, but the days seem longer. It has been really rainy in the evenings, which allowed for us to save water and take showers in the rain, which are fun. The rain we get in PA would never be heavy enough for shampoo to wash out, but here is another story. Today I went with Molly and another volunteer to take a child to the Doctors for a visit before she goes home. The traffic was bad, and we heard that there was going to be some demonstrations for riots...so we turned around, because it would not be safe for white persons to be in the area. It has been amazing to meet adoptive families...because it is such a blessing to hear their journey, and now be able to finally hold their child in their arms at last. It is amazing to see the glow on the parents faces when they interact with their child, because for some of them-all they have every seen of their child is a picture for the past 2-3 years. God is good, because he picks families that can meet a certain need of a child. God works in amazing ways. I will try to write again soon, but I hope all of you are doing well. Sending my love your way :)

The Devil has no authority here

The internet has been down the last couple of days because of rain and storms, but here I am..in good 'ole Haiti. This week has been a journey to say the least, but I can say God is good. I have realized that I need to fully surrender myself to the Lord. The last two weeks have been up and down, and I was discouraged and was thinking of what I could do to come home early. The Lord has really opened my eyes, and today I was full of joy content for one of the first full days. I had a few nightmares this week, and woke up in the middle of the night. I usually don't wake up in the middle of the night nor do I remember my dreams. I was talking to one of the ladies who works here, and she was sharing that she prays for protection over her household each night. Haiti is a dark country with a lot of spiritual opposition, and there are people who practice voodoo and cast spells. All this to say...is there is a spiritual battle around us at all times. Sometimes we are unaware of it, but we are part of the battle. The Lord reminded me to wake up each day claiming the Lord, and getting myself ready with his righteousness. It is a good reminder. Okay..it is time to leave the main house...i will try to write sometime soon. Blessings!!

It's gettting warmer

The last few days have been really warm, and the hurricane season is coming. It rained really hard last night, which helped to cool down the night. Today is going well, but with this warm weather it makes it harder to enjoy each moment, because it makes us more sluggish. We took the children for a nice long walk this morning, which was beautiful, and I was impressed by the little ones because they made it up a big rocky hill. Four more volunteers are coming today, which I am excited for to help make more conversation and fun on the balcony during the day and in the evenings. The volunteers who are here now seem to be quiet during meal times, but that might also be because it is our down time for the day. They are such a blessing, and I have enjoyed getting to know them.

On Sunday we went to the Haitian church with the kids. It was a great experience. We were told to dress nicely, because they take pride in their clothing on Sunday mornings. It is sad though, because if they don't have nice clothing..they can't attend. As we walked down with the children and the nanny....i saw that she had flip flops on as well, so i thought we would be fine with our flip flops. Well before we neared the corner of the church she had us stop, and I was like what is she doing? She pulled out her really nice shoes, and I looked to the other volunteers and was like...well i guess there isn't anything we can do now....and it wasn't like we wouldn't stick out already. They said that they give grace to American...:) It was really warm in the church, because there were about 300 hundred people packed into benches. We didn't have a translator so we guessed what was happening, but thankfully the nanny beside us was helping us turn our Bibles to the right chapter. I caught a few words here and there, but I enjoyed observing others worshiping the Lord, and listening to their beautiful language. The worship director's song was up front with his dad, and he saw us come in and he eyed us up as he inched closer and closer. Eventually when he was pretty close I reached out my hands to him and told him he could sit on my lap. He sat there for about an hour, but most of that time many people were looking at me with smiles, because they probably were thinking of all the people to sit down on..he had to choose a blan (which is white person in Creole'). It made my day! The service was about 3 hours longs...9-12. I enjoyed this opportunity.

Daphne'

This is Daphne'. She is about a year and a half old. GLA thinks she was neglected, and I believe this to be true as well. She is a challenge to get to smile, but she is full of love, and I know that she will break through sometime soon. She seems to be withdrawn from the other kids, but loves my one-on-one attention. She will smile when we dance to music. Today she looked into my eyes, which is something that she has not been doing too often. I talk to her as I rocked her, and I think she is starting to open up, which is very exciting to see.

Pudding Party

Yesterday we worked with the children from 1-5 for our work project. We spent time with the children who don't currently have volunteers. We put them in containers filled with water, which they loved to splash and play in, and we made pudding and gave it to them. They kepts saying that they wanted more. It was sticky and very messy, but worthwhile to see thier smiles and content faces.

This is three of the children we took for a walk. Each day we try to break up the day and take the children out in the community. It is good for them to broaden their surroundings, and see new things. One of the volunteers gave them lollipops, and they loved it. We put shoes, hats, and dresses on them to ensure the neighbors that they are well taken care of. After we get back we put them back into their nursery clothes. The children are so adorable!

Picture Day

Today was picture day at the toddler house so we stayed there for the morning to help out. The kids love this day, because they get to dress up, smile, and get to show their parents how cute and big they are getting. They kids are well behaved for the most part, and put up with a lot. They are taken well care of, and the staff do really fall in love with them.
Last night at Bible study we talked about Josiah's reign in 1 Chronicles 34, and how there was a need for a revival after evil leaders. We talked about being passionate for the Lord, and fervently seeking him. They noted that this word has the word fever in, and what we know about fevers is that it is hot to the touch; which is the same way we should be for the Lord. We have one purpose on this earth, and that is to follow him. God is good, and is teaching me many different things about living out his plan, and not my own. It is neat to see the Lord placing new passions on my heart, and building on ones that were already planted. Thanks again for your prayers...I am doing well, but got to run back up to spend time with the babies. I will try to post some photos soon. Much love

Before the dinner bell rings....

The dinner bell is going to ring soon, but i wanted to send my greetings today. Today started out as a cool morning, but near the afternoon got very warm. Haiti is nearing the end of the raining season, but has not reached it yet. Most days it rains in the afternoon, but on the bright side it cools the day down. We have had a lot of laughs recently because the kids have been doing a good job at eating lets say, because we have changed many diapers after getting pooped on :) It was precious because this morning when we walked in through the gate and looked up on the balcony which has doors, and you see all the little ones lined up....just look and waving. One of my babies was up there and I said her name...and she gave me a beautiful smile. I feel like the kids have been warming up to us, and it is so neat to see. The more comfortable they become, the more we will be able to work with them. I am really enjoying them, because what is there not to love about them. Today the other volunteers and I were talking about these kids futures, and guessing what they may become because of their actions and features...so cute. I love walking in the room to pick them up, but I dread putting them back in the nursery after an hour, because they cry and don't like it. My goal is to meet with the Lord each morning on the porch, because I need to start each day with God's strength. If I don't..I will loose sight of my focus and purpose here. The balcony, where we play with the kids, overlooks several mountains which are absolutely breath-taking, and the phrase..."I look up to the mountain's and where does my help come from; my help comes from the maker of the heaven and earth." A good reminder. I was daydreaming today of what heaven will be like when all nations and tribes come together, and what a glorious place that will be. These kids are stealing my heart, but I hope to one day bring one of these babies home with me. We have been joking and scheming of all the possible ways to put one in our backpacks-unfortunately the bigger ones might not fit...but we are still looking for a way....much love, and thanks so much for all your prayers-because I can feel them. I am doing well, and feeling good. It is an answer to prayer.
P.S. Sorry that this tends to be scattered thoughts. I will continue to write as much as possible, but it all depends on weather, access, and time if I can write. Thanks again!

God is Alive

Today we went to a house church. Evonne and Joel lead our service, as well as doing Bible studies on Wednesday nights. They have been missionaries for about 11 years in Haiti, and they are on fire for the Lord. They encouraged us to follow God's plan, and not our own, because his way is the best. We need to commit everything we do to him, because the more we draw close to him the more of his we become. It is challenges, because it is easy to want to count the days until I come home, but today was good to hear. I do feel like I am adjusting well, and I am really enjoying the Haitians i am meeting, the kids, and the staff. They are a blessing, and their ministry here is amazing. The other volunteers have been great too, because we are able to debrief about our days together, and spend time in the evenings together. Each evening we have free time. We get up around 6:30 or 7 am and walk 20 mins. to the main house, which is about 20 mins away, and we get there about 8 am. We work with kids until 5; have dinner, and drive back to the house at about 6pm. It is completely dark at 7, and we are required to stay in the house because the streets get dangerous at night. We spend time together as volunteers and go to bed between 9-10, which is very early for me, but I have been tired. This country is beautiful, and greater things are still to be done in this city (I love this song).
Yesterday we went to a pool and had the day to swim. After that we went to the market, and I got a beautiful painting. Every other Saturday is "vacation" day while the other one is work day. They do a good job at educating us on the cultural, and any other questions we have. I am so excited to work with my kids again this week, because they are precious. No matter how much love I give them, they give it back to me. One of the babies is 2 weeks old and has a very swollen head, which is full of fluid. We have been really praying for her, because Haiti doesn't have the medical care for her. Someone is coming to take her to the US on Wednesday, so please keep her in your prayers. There is another baby who came to the orphanage and was all but dead, and they resuscitated him, and he is doing very well. His mother comes everyday to breastfeed him, and he is gaining weight, and can soon join his family again. His twin died, and his family feels very blessed to have GLA nourish him back to health. The Lord is good, and He is teaching me a lot about selfless love, and relating to others despite how different or hard it is. Thanks again for all your prayers....I am starting to really love it here. The Lord is teaching me to fully rely on him, above all else. I also desire to fully learn the character of God, and grow deeper, because it is so easy to say you"know Him", without truly knowing our creator. That is my desire, and I am excited to meet with Him each day. Blessings

My Angels

Once again I don't have much time to write today. I have eight babies, and I take care of them an hour each day. One of my babies, Daphne' is very withdrawal and sad. It is hard to see this, because babies usually smile in an instance...not this one. I will be working with her to make eye-contact, and to make her feel loved. They think she has been neglected. Today I was playing with her, and she started to laugh, which melted my heart. She will be a challenge to break through to her, so keep her in your prayers. All the children could use prayers. This morning we had breakfast with Lois, who is the host for adoptive parents to come visit their children. We had a time of prayer today for the children, staff, and volunteers. She said that they are short volunteers because people have been declining the opportunity to come. She said the devil has been at work. This is an answer of prayer, because I had the same situation with which i was thinking about not coming. Praise the Lord for giving me the grace and peace to still come. These children need and strive for attention. I can feel myself falling in love with them already! I will hopefully write soon again! much love

I am Here

I don't have too much time to write today..but I did get here safe. It has been kinda hard adjusting, but I do feel called to be here. Yesterday I was trying to think of all the possible ways to change my flight to come home early...but today has been so much better. It is a very different culture, and there are so many kids that need love, which is so heart breaking to see. I have eight babies, and each child only gets a measly hour each day. I wish I had time to give them more love. You walk into the nursery..and you have 10 children swarming you with their arms in the air, because they want you to be picked up. Yesterday was very overwhelming to meet everyone, be in a new place, and not know anyone. I was so blessed to be able to meet Danielle in Florida which helped a lot, and everyone on staff is so sweet. The babies are crying..and my lunch break is up..so i must get back to them. I am doing well, but it will take time to adjust. Today we went on a walk around the orphanage, and it is very mountainous, and beautiful. The people are friendly, but I wish there wasn't such a language barrier-i want to talk more deeply with the people, but now I am limited to small talk. Take care and I will try to update soon again. Blessings and thanks for the prayers...i can feel them :)

Leaving.....

Tomorrow is the day that I will be flying out, and the next time I post it will be from Haiti. I am feeling anxious, because I feel like I have been talking about it so long and now it is here. I am so excited to walk into the orphanage Wednesday morning and see the children's faces. The faces that I have fallen in love with, even before I have met them. I am so excited for the children to smile back at me, and recognize me. I have three flights...the first one leaves tomorrow at 4 pm, and the third flight I will arrive in Haiti around 9:30 am Wednesday morning after a nine hour layover. God is so good, because he provided someone for me to meet up with in Florida for my layover, who is going to GLA the same day with me. It will be a blessing to go through customs with her. I couldn't have planned that better myself. This past weekend was very special because Sam and my family had a time of prayer together as we committed each one to the Lord this summer. I know that I will be supported in prayer, which is such a privilege and blessing to be part of the body of Christ. The children at this orphanage don't have a family to love them yet, but I pray that I can be the best temporary arms for these children until they receive a family to cherish them forever. It is hard to leave, but I know this is where my heart is this summer, and once I get there i know it will be amazing. I want to cherish each moment...because it will go fast. Thanks again for all your prayers :)

Preparing

I can't believe that I am a week away from leaving....it seems so surreal. I need to pray more and prepare my heart for this experience. I feel many different emotions. I am very excited, but I am nervous because I do not know what to expect. My prayer right now is that my heart and mind will be in the right place, that i will be able to savor each moment; and not wish away my time, for health and safety while traveling and in Haiti, and for the funds to continue to come in. God is so faithful, and he will provide because He always does! I know God is going to teach me so much, and I can't wait to learn more about His character...He is so real-why don't I treat him like that? Why don't I spend more time with Him? I have heard it said that when you look back over a persons day, and see where they spent the majority of their time..it shows what that person prioritizes and claims to be their passion. If someone where to look over my life-would they see that Christ is my priority? That is my challenge, and i want the answer to be Yes.